Friday, February 27, 2004
Hmm not dead yet... strangely i'm feeling better now. Don't get me wrong.. i still want to die but the thing is i feel good today. Like nothing has gone wrong. Hmm whats up with that? I feel more energetic n less bored. Curious.

Well i'm gonna go meet Kaze and maybe Khai tonight for dinner and possibly jamming. After that if theres time i might meet up with Anil for a drink at Zombie rock bar. IF its possible i might squeeze in time for drawing something. Hands are feeling itchy to come up with something. hhmmm its seems like whenever im down im really down and whenever im up n running i sprint till im too tired... i guess if life were a race i'd be a sprinter... rushing when i have the energy but when im outta energy im reallly out. What can i do to solve this?.... well nothing... its the way i am. Damn.. this is even true when im eating.. i always rush to get everything on my plate into my stomach... unless i'm eating seconds.

I suddenly have this feeling that nothing else can go wrong in my life. But i'm sure thats just n illusion. Things just seem fine only for the moment. sigh ... i wish things like this lasted forever.

Interesting talk i had with Khai last night on IRC about things like religion. for a moment i felt drawn out of Singapore and problems in my own life and started thinking of the big picture of life... What if the entire Human history and progress was all based on one basic emotion... Fear. Could it be that fear was the one thing that caused some ancient ancestor to come up with prehistoric ghost stories and to counter these monstrous abominations someone else came up with the idea of having a religion whose god if u worshipped could save you from whatever monstrosity was conjured up by human imagination? And as the centuries went by, this religion was widely spread and became a cornerstone in building the world which we see ourselves in now? Man and theres so much more questions which keep popping up the more we delved into it. So many questions and no answers at all. Its like what i told her... We human beings can only base what conclusions we come up with to these questions by assumptions, past tried experiments and tests. Dare we say we know the secrets of the universe when all we know about it is just the tip of the glacier?

"There are more things in Heaven and Earth than in your philosophy"-Heratio
-Talon faced death at 3:19 PM

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