One owes respect to the living
To the dead one owes only truth- Voltaire
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My Favourite Thing Is The Night
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Another day of work n another end to another day of work.... man its so damn routine.... feel like going fer a holiday but dunoe wen the rest r free ta go.. maybe i should go alone...hmmm... anyways as usual life is so damn sucky... well i think wen i get the money im gna move out to a 3 room hdb flat.... paint my bedroom black (everything in it is gonna be black) and have one more room as my computer, jamming, gaming and live alone till my time comes. I'm not gonna wait for someone who might or might not come into my life n fuel me with love... i've had enough of empty promises, unrequited love, sacrificing, unpromised futures, rejection and suffering. Enough is enough... if my way of life is to be alone then that is what i will go to... why should i fight something that cannot be changed no matter what i do? I know i will day by day still think or wish there was someone but i guess deep down inside i know there isnt any. Now i just wanna go be by myself. Hang around with friends... once in a while mt up with my parents if that thought crosses my mind. And one day.... one day i shall cease to exist and i'm gonna welcome it with open arms!
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Monday, April 26, 2004
Hmm again its been a looong time since i last updated. Well here we go...
Well im still alive as you can see. hmmm got abit ... no actually very down recently... starting frm wed... cus i found out something. Dun think ill mention it here n i dont think ill say what i did on Sat night. Well i hope i learnt a lesson in all this.... NEVER have or even think about having a relationship and be content with what little joy i have in this pathetic life of mine. I wish i wasnt so blind n naive i wish i were more cold hearted... i wish i wasnt born.... *sigh*
Well gotta go back ta work tomorrow n face another week... man thinking about it is so tiring.
Why is it that the worst of people have a gf when they dont deserve it? I just heard frm a friend of mine that while she was at far east, there was this guy beating up his gf. Why does such a guy deserve companionship and not me? Ah dammit... there i go again... thinking about something that is not in my destiny....
I think i need ta go sleep... at least there i can find some form of love frm a woman that could never exist for me in the real world.
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Monday, April 05, 2004
Damn wasted Sunday.... well at least my Saturday was good.. hehe I GOT MY SAMURAI SWORD WOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! And it looks gorgeous!!!!! sigh now if only i knew abit of kendo. Hmmm And guess what?? i've got another sword targeted. =) hehe Man ive got so many things to buy. A new TV for my room, a DVD RW, an LCD Monitir, a rack for my new tv, a computer table, more swords, more action figures, a new guitar, guitar effects... damn the list is endless... and im planning on moving outta this place too... but i heard tat the legal age so you can buy a new house if you're single is 35 so thats another 7 or 8 years more before i can finally be really alone.
ARRR dammit another day of work tomorrow. work work work.... muct keep thinging to myself of next weekend... hey waitaminit... isnt good friday nxt week??? woohooo!!!!!!!!!!!!! well at least next week is shorter muahahahaha =))))
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Thursday, April 01, 2004
WHoa!!! Its been a looooooooooooooooooong time since i updated this place.
Well where shall i start.... hmmm. It has come to pass that i am currently in the process of killing every single emotion tat has to do with having a relationship. Yeap.. its the DESTROY LOVE campaign... no more love for me. Unbelievable as it may sound i'm actually going somewhere with this... I have supressed every 1st instinct tats been coming into my head for weeks now and its working. Heartaches been stopping. And i have only one craving right now.... to die. But before that happens i'm gonna do all the things that ive dreamt of doing. I'll just leave love for my afterlife.. maybe i'll find a nice spirit or angel to be in love with.
Anyways... today is the last of my 5 day super ultra long weekend. And i went to Malaysia with Kaze. Sigh only thing tats disappointing is that i din get ta buy anything. Nothing there really interested me. Where the hell can i find a gothic boutique in this damn region???!!! *sigh*
Well i'm going off ta bed now and when i wake up its gna be the start of work work work... crap. Oh well... can't have fun all the time or you'd get bored. oh yeah... one more thing... DAMN... IM STILL ALIVE!!!!
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