Friday, September 30, 2005
Life sux... yeap the 2 most used words jus HAD to be said again. *sigh* Ah well at least i had a good time when i was away in Genting n KL. Looks like i still got the hang fer rock climbing too =P i climbed the wall at Genting.... it was pretty fun... brought back quite alot of memories of my rock climbing days at my poly. Haha n tats the first time tat i got applause fer climbing a wall ;)

Well well well.... looks like my Neil Gaiman collection is gettin bigger... =D hehe i think at the moment he's captured my attention so much tat im kinda addicted to his stories. The worlds he speaks of are just the kinda places i'd love to live in. What can i say? I'm n escapist.

So why does life suck u may ask after all the good stuff tats been happening? Well i've been thinkin about my job... is this what i wanna do fer the rest of my life? Installing servers and IT stuff? I think life is too short to have to keep doing something you don't really enjoy doing and regret it at the end when u reflect back n realise that you couldve done something else. Why do i hang on to my current job then? One word.......... 'Money'. The ultimate driving factor that keeps us all on our toes. Although Money as the saying goes is the root of all evil.. it is also resposible fer each individual's survival. If you think you can survive on love then you'd better not be reading this cus its not just love tat makes the world go round anymore... that age has past us a long time ago.

I could go on and on about this crap but right now i'm too much in a dilemna to bother writing bout it. I guess i'll just have to wait n see what happens and in the meantime keep my options open.... it never was this complicated when i was a kid and all i worried about was being on time to catch the next episode of Transformers or Mask or Visionaries on the tube. Theres alot i used to do tat i just don't have enought time for anymore... like catching tv shows daily... watching every movie tats out there be they blockbuster or b grade movie... sleeping till 3pm everyday (actually i still do that on weekends =p)... Times have come and times have passed... enjoy the moments you have cause they'll never be the same again
-Talon faced death at 2:38 PM

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Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Back again frm Genting and KL. It was a pretty good trip... ultimate high was wen i went on that superman rollercoaster ride... that was AWESOME!... imagine ur on a rollercoaster but u lie flat on ur stomach ... just like superman muahahahahah!!!!

The ultimate low fer the trip sadly was at the Kreator Gig though... they promised us entry by 530, an opening band at 6, interval at 7, Kreator at 8, Meet the fans at 9 and a party at 10 (i dont really know wat party they had in mind). Instead wat we got was a wait from 530 to 8+ and then Kreator and that was it.... like ... WTF!!!!!! i din mind that they couldnt meet us but they could at least have told us that the band was coming late n the opening band was cancelled so we could have gone n get drinks n rested until the concert... instead they decided to bless us with sore feet.... that sucked soooo bad!!!

Well at least i got good pics from the concert and from the trip to Genting... pretty much a great trip even though the waiting part was a major pain in the butt.

*sigh* n now its back to reality, work n normal life in same ol' Singapore... sometimes u just wish dreams would never end.
-Talon faced death at 11:27 AM

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Friday, September 16, 2005
Isnt it ironic how one minute u can be on top of the world thinking wat could possibly go wrong and the next moment everything goes to hell and you tell urself 'me and my big mouth'
-Talon faced death at 12:16 AM

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I need to get a whole load offa my mind. I need a vacation... can't wait till next friday.
-Talon faced death at 12:11 AM

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Thursday, September 15, 2005
Im PISSSED Im tired of explining things time and again im tired of fukin writing this post 2wice!!!!! im gonna get a penknife n go watch the blood flow
-Talon faced death at 12:27 AM

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Physically i am:
a) Hot on inside, cold on outside
b) tired from a long day of work frm carrying things and waiting for long hours without food
c) sleepy

mentally i am:
a) Drained from work which started frm 10 to 730 which i spnt tryin to figure out what the hell happened to a server
b) disappointed that i did not come home and was able to relax as i planned to after all that crap i went through

why u may ask? cus
a) i got a colleague on friendster pestering me about wat happened today an im sick of explaining it to everyone cus its too damn long
b) cus i'm sick of explaining that my life doesn't revolve around my past
c) cus i'm sick of explaining tat i do care for my friends

i wouldn't even be writing this now if i wasn't so pissed n feelin crappy right now..... arrggghh....where the fuck is my penknife

im just gonna go watch blood drip
-Talon faced death at 12:13 AM

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Thursday, September 08, 2005
Things to be happy about

1) Its almost the end of Thursday. Theoretically i've got another 2 more days of standby and i'm
free to do as i will again weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

2) The Kreator concert is just about 2 weeks away.

3) I'm gonna check out the Rollercoasters at Genting!!! WOOOHOOO!!!!

4) Halloween is nearing and i got somethin ta wear muahahaha and the best part is i can use it at
the LARP too so its not gonna be a one time use and be done with it kinda clothing

5) I just ordered the Neverwhere DVD collection =D
-Talon faced death at 5:36 PM

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Interesting... i just read the 2nd last story for Smoke and Mirrors by Neil Gaiman, Murder Mysteries. Its put me in a very thoughtful mood. Made me remember something i believed in bu somehow lost along the way... i'm glad i found it again after reading it.... it went something like this... There is a reason for everything that happens... good or bad.

And that makes me think of how things are going in my life right now. It is all leading to somewhere. Though i don't really know where that somewhere is i'm pretty sure thats how it was written to be and no matter how i do things its gonna end up the same outcome.

The thing is the things im doing right now before reaching that outcome is gonna affect people i just met, people i've known for years, people who i don't know at all. And its gonna affect how they spend their lives before reaching their final outcome.

It's a huge resposibility being alive when even the smallest things we do mean alot. In the greater plan our minute decisions are like throwing a stone down a slope... it might just cause n avalanche.
-Talon faced death at 1:00 AM

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Sunday, September 04, 2005
I'm sick. Sick n tired of explaining. Sick of everything. I don't wanna talk about whoever i was interested in. There is NO huge line of girls after me. Just dont talk about the L word again cus i'm sick of listening about my L life. There is NO L in my life n i dun wanna think about it. Why?
Cus fIrstly i dunno wat i want anymore and secondly i dunno where i'm going with this life. Things keep happening that i don't want to happen and its becoming more tiring to cope with all the emo crap.

Enuff is enuff
-Talon faced death at 12:02 AM

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