Friday, October 28, 2005
I don't want to say bad things about my friends even though i feel it. It is sad, frustrating, irritating and ultimately just triggers a temper. I hate it when i'm angry at people specially if i care for them. I'm not a people person when it comes to things like this and i hate having to face people and arguing cus i knw for one its gonna end up in the end of a friendship.... when i start blowing up on people its not a pretty sight and when i loose a friend... they stay lost. I hate this side of me but thats why i try my best never to argue with anyone and giving them the benefit of the doubt about things. Sometimes its hard holding rage in and thats why i get quiet at times... i'm speaking for me and others who may be like me when i say this... never take quietness for compliance cus its just the calm before a potential storm. And when it breaks out, things are not gonna be the same again.
-Talon faced death at 11:46 AM

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Wednesday, October 19, 2005
I can't wait fer halloween! Its just next week and i hope things go well. I just got my costume yesterday.. MUAHAHAHAH!!! I think i gotta do some modifications though... it doesn't seem to have the exact look i was going for although the tailor did a pretty good job on it.

2006 is just around the corner... the world seems in more turmoil than before. But is really that things are going from bad to worse or is it that the media coverage on things is becoming more extensive and we are getting more and more exposed to the world? Or could it be both?

Singapore is coming out of its nutshell and is starting to learn that Yes there IS a world outside of our country!! And guess what? Its not as pretty as it was in the movies or as cool. In the real world, there is only the blue pill. In the real world, people don't come back from the dead. In the real world, people loose jobs and stay that way.... or at least the real world as we know it. I'm not saying i'm the gateway to knowledge on what is happening in the world... i'm just saying that reality sux. Maybe being hooked up to a computer isnt such a bad idea at all.
-Talon faced death at 10:28 AM

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Well appraently i don't have to stay till too late cus the customer told us to continue with the installation tomorrow ard 9 in the morning... and so i thought that things were better until my colleague told me theres another installation 2nite at 1:45 in the friggin morning!!! i'm gonna be soooo friggin wiped out tomorrow.
-Talon faced death at 10:23 AM

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Monday, October 17, 2005
This is gonna be such a sucky week... i'm on standby and i cant do shit about it. sigh i hate feeling trapped like this. Its at such times that i wish to change jobs and do something without crap like this happening. Already on Wednesday i go to work till probably ard 12 midnight or more. Friggin crap!

Oh guess what... today there was a rare case where a customer came in with a Sun desktop (Unix PC) cause he was havin some trouble with it. I was with him at the counter and he was askin fer a reciept from us to acknowledge that he had left his desktop with us. I called my manager to ask him if he knows of any form we might give him but he said normally we dont issue receipts like that and in the event that a reciept is needed the customer is supposed to provide it so that we can sign it.

The customer wasn't that happy when i told him what my manager told me hehe n he called my manager stupid... well it is to be expected cus who in the hell would do such a thing??? even my ipod which i had to leave fer maintainance at the apple centre had a form to be filled at the apple centre. Ah well but that wasn't the highlight...anyways both the customer n me were waiting at the counter fer a form to be drafted by my colleague when the damned manager who was in charge fer our entire team showed up. He and i are not on good terms with each other by the way.

And when he showed up he was all smiling and asking me so nicely what was happening. Man i soooo felt like asking him to fuck off to to keep his smile fer himself. It was sooo friggin irksome to see him smile and ask me what was happening. Theres been countless of times where i tried to be friendly with him and all he did was to be a friggin pain in the ass. It just goes to show the duplicity of people. It was soooo fuckin hypocritic and that fake smile is just soooo blooody damn disgusting... just because the guy standing there was a customer and i bet the fact that he was and caucasian had a hand in it as well. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH life SUX!!!!!
-Talon faced death at 3:58 PM

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Friday, October 07, 2005
It has been 2 days of glorious Shisha fest... man things in Haji Lane's been pickin up abit.. seen alotta faces that i havent seen in awhile.

Of all the ppl to meet last night i met my ex-poly friend.. i havent seen him in ages. I wonder what the rest of em r doing.. Mark, Thomas, Rico, Teck Soon, Jacob, ... hmm its been ages since i've even thought of these names. Its a pity we lost contact cuz at that point in life we were pretty close.

I guess thats the case with people all the time... you meet someone who you find who has so many things in common with you, you get closer to them and maybe even start thinking they're your best friend but as time goes by and you have new friends and your best friend has new friends you guys drift apart. You may keep in contact once in awhile but its just not the same as it used to be. You may get disappointed with them, they may get disappointed with you but once upon a time, they were still close to you.

Remember them, cuz they were a part of your life and had at least a small play in shaping your life.
-Talon faced death at 10:02 AM

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Tuesday, October 04, 2005
So i woke up this morning with a start as usual and rolled over my bed to check my hp to see if i had overslept. Thankfully i had awoke right on time. The previous night had been a late one as has been the trend for the past few weeks... late nights up till 2. Lying on my bed with lazy eyelids refusing to accept the sunlight, i wrenched them open with thoughts of what might happen if i went to work late. Beside me lay the 3rd issue of The Sandman just wanting to be read after last nights half-done reading. A thin thrill of adrenaline ran through me as i savoured the thought that i'll get to more of that once i get on the bus to work later... and then as i got up to get my toiletries an afterthought struck that i might not get a seat... *sigh*. The start of another day at work till 6 and then its off to the Jamming studio.

Its come to the stage where i dread the morning and afternoon and welcome with open arms the evening and night. The day has been subconciously become synonymous with work and serious matters that i dread being around while the night has become the warm embrace that i crave for in the day. Perhaps one day i would entirely shun the day and thrive in the rich ebony blanket of night.... perhaps.

Getting out of the shower and feeling refreshed, i walked towards my room and glanced over to see the clock mounted in the living room. It was 8... no still not late. 10 minutes to change and then i'll be off. The morning ritual of glancing over has always been a nervous one as time in the shower seems to run slower than the world outside. Especially when the warmth of the water runs over the body and brings your blood circulation up to speed. By the time i've had enough of that, always the dreadful uncertainty if i've been in there for too long comes up. This day, blessed as it is though was not a late work day though.

And i clothed myself as i do every morning and packed the 3rd issue of The Sandman into my laptop bag. As the earpieces came on and i switched on the gothic sounds of London after midnight from my ipod, i once again missed my world of darkness... still many hours away, seperated by the barrier of work.

Slipping my shoes on, i walked out the door hoping.. wishing another day would end without event at work and another night would begin with eventful pleasure.
-Talon faced death at 12:53 PM

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