Thursday, May 22, 2008
Ok ok.. i know its been a heck of a long time since i updated my blog but here's the scoop on whats happening in the plains of darkness recently.

This year has been a year of tremendous change in my life. Things are happening in light speed. The year that i'm 31 marks the year of all.. well most of my desires being realised.

The first of the changes started around March ok this is kinda private but its still a significant impact in my life. I mean i'm supposed to have sone it when i was just born but my grandma prohibited my parents from doing it. Well thats ancient history now. Lets just say it hurt but now its much better (for more details ask me.. if you really wanna know that it).

And then came my niece, Neha. Yeap my sis gave birth to a healthy baby girl and i'm a proud uncle now. Shes really cute and i think i'm gonna be spoiling her as she grows up. I'm gonna be buying her lotsa toys.

Well it doesn't stop there... on the day she was born i got a pay raise. ($_$) hehe.. at last i've gone past the 3k mark... i just hope it doesn't stop there.

Whats next?... well i finally passed and got my driver's license!! My god i was so friggin happy when i stepped outta the instructor's room... it reminded me of how i passed my o levels and my poly dip. So happy in fact that right after i passed i went over to the Mitsubishi showroom to ask for quotations on a Lancer GLX. And the happiness didn't stop there cus i went to arab street after that to celebrate and also to do my math... once it was done i went down the next day to get my very own ride =)



Ok so the pic isn't tat good but theres more to come. Specially once i'm done remodelling it ;) Sofar i'm really happy with it. A few scratches here n there tho but i think thats unavoidable.

So fer now thats the scoop from the dark side.
-Talon faced death at 3:14 AM

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Thursday, October 18, 2007
Much ado about shisha

Shisha, the one thing in the world today that is my anti-depressent. Gets me hi for at least the first 10 mins and if its done by the best shisha guy i know it'll probably stay till 20mins.

The maximum lifetime for one shisha is ard 45mins to n hour or more depending on the skill of person who makes it, what size of bowl you get that holds the shisha and if the charcoal is just the right amount.

Things to look out for when you buy shisha

If after smoking it after a few puffs u find that theres not enough smoke:

1) If the white plastic mouthpiece is inserted, try smoking without it
2) Instead of inhaling, blow through the pipe and see if any smoke comes out through a possible leak in the pipe.
3) Make sure the charcoal given is enough and burning red.
4) Loosen the exhaust stopper which should be somewhere on the bong itself. Sometimes it makes it harder to inhale the smoke.
5) Make sure theres enough holes poked into the aluminium foil that covers the bowl.

If any of these are true, you can always call on the people serving for help so don't be shy or you're only gonna loose precious time allocated for shisha. Oh also, if the shisha is left alone for too long the smoke will die out and the shisha in the bowl get dried up... so smoke it while it lasts.

Where do i go for shisha in Singapore?

The following is a list of places that i'd recommend. They are all around the arab street area.

1) Al-Majlis (The cheapest <$12.60> and best place to go for shisha but the service can be slow especially on fri and weekends)
2) Fedrochi (Same price as Al-Majlis but abit light though)
3) Samar (Much more expensive <$20.00> but as good as Al-majlis)
4) Mosi (Ard the same price as Al-majlis but gets abit harsh on the throat after awile. Also they use the instant charcoal type which doesnt make it taste as good)

Well there u have it. In my opinion the other places in Singapore are either tooo damn pricey or the smoke just isn't good enough or both.

Wat to drink when you have shisha?

1) Water... this is what i order all the time when having shisha. Its the best thing to have around to quech ur thirst and in case your throat gets too dry)
2) Wine... ahhh the magic of drinking wine while smoking is unbelieveable... add to that a good bbq and we got a party. But don't expect that theres gonna be any wine in any of the above places though cus they dont serve any. Try to have it before you go shishaing... just at that point wen ur hi.. it'll blow your mind away)
3) Hot mint tea... I've heard that this is the authentic drink which they drink while shishaing but i've never tried it myself

Should i eat before or after shisha?

Personally i think after is better. A heavy meal tends to wear me out before having my smoke so its kinda hard to enjoy it. Whereas in the case of eating after i shisha, i usually get a good appetite going after i smoke.

Cigerettes or Shisha?

It depends on the person. From what i see, most of my friends who smoke cigerettes tel me that theres no kick in shisha.. well all except one actually. For most non-cigerette smokers, they would prefer shisha more than the cigerettes (i think its cus the smoke isnt as coarse). Of course there are the other type who just hate smoking.

What flavour?

My personal favourites at Al-majlis would be:

1) Apple (Very strong)
2) Rose Mint (Tastes sweet and refreshing)
3) Apple rose mint (The best of both worlds)

I when i go to other shisha places, i'd usually compare the standard with one of these flavours. Oh btw, the only place i've been to sofar that mixes 3 flavours together is at Al-majlis.

Should i or shouldn't i?

Well heres what i always say: I'll try anything once. If i don't like it, i won't do it again.

So thats my scoop on Shisha... remember if ur ever going... ask me along too ;)
-Talon faced death at 2:55 PM

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Monday, September 24, 2007
This is gonna be depressing...

I'm in one of my depressive moods this evening. Well... something just made me just a little happy but i just need ta blog about this. Just what in tarnation am i talkin about this time? well... my life.

It sux to be single sometimes. When you need someone and theres no one there. I'm getting to my expiration date soon. Don't have much time to enjoy life. Theres nothing more to enjoy tho. Work these days are taxing... sure i try to relax by havin shisha right after work but the usual gang isn't there to keep me company cus of Ramadan period. Things start entering my head when i'm alone. Things like ... yeap this is one of those times when the people you know aren't going to be around for laughs and to make you forget the depressive part of my life.

Work.. been working ot at least once a week these days and it can last up to 5 or 6 hours... tat means i work till about 5 or 6 in the morning. Whats more theres my remedial training. Yeah SAF needs to make all of its soldiers fighting fit so they can support the country at times of war. ooo theres much to be said about that but another time.. this is about me. I'm just so tired.. i mean i know there are people probably workin harder than me... Kaze being one of them of course but this is not me. I want to feel the worth of why i'm workin. The satisfaction of doing something not for material gains but for ... someone. At the end of the day the only thing i can be sure of is either getting home and watching movies online or going fer shisha.

What is there left? Where is my fukin life going? I've no idea. It sux not being in control and not knowing where things are gonna head to. Its at times like these that i wish i could be that guy in the train with a girl beside him... or that other guy in the car with a girl beside him or even that guy who's jobless but still has the support of a loving gf. Fuckin retard life.

Yeah i've been in relationships before... nothing really stable tho. Why? well the majority of it is cus of that thing called racism... not by my ex... but the parents. So why don't i get a gf whos indian? Well.... believe me i tried. She was someone i met in my cousins wedding who i thought would be a nice enough person... NOT. I'm not someone who is biased over race... i'm just someone who's life is outcast from my race. So... how can moi who can't be accepted by indian, malay or chinese or any other race be in a relationship? The answer... probably in my dreams.

Hence, at this point in my life, if theres no relationship i can look forward to... then what is the meaning to a life of loneliness? Theres no one to share those last days with. No one to plan the future with. Heck no one to even say "hey... i'm not happy with you smokin... if you wanna be with me you gotta cut down".

They say no man is an island... well im a friggin 1 sq cm plot of land in the pacific ocean that no ones probably gonna notice even if all the other land on Earth became submerged cus of some apocalyptic disaster.

I used to live life with a hope but it looks like Pandora is just closing that up in the box. And with that goin away, all paths are just pointing to emptiness.

To all those readin this who are in a relationship... treasure yours cus its a blessing n a miracle (you're gonna get a sock on the head from me if you don't). To all those who aren't in one yet... don't follow my path... it gets colder everyday.
-Talon faced death at 11:30 PM

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Oh btw: http://quiz.myyearbook.com/myspace/PersonalityEmotion/752/Which_Serial_Killer_Are_You.html

I'm a night stalker
-Talon faced death at 4:05 PM

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Deep thought

I finally finished watching the entire season 1 and the 1st 2 episodes of season 2 of Dexter yesterday. It put me into the mood of deep thinking.

We all have a place in the universe to be played out. small or big our roles are still important. In the fabric of time, our lives are but threads that intertwine with each other. There are threads that come together and create a new line, there are threads that are cut short and then there are those threads that are just there to act as intermidiaries... they bind other threads together, but they aren't much of a thread by thenselves. These threads are that which stays in a continual loop from beginning to end, looking on as others go by on their journeys. These are the threads i call watchers. Cus all they can do is stand by in the side and look on. Its not a curse nor what they choose, it's just part of the fabric that make the universe as it is. Everyone has a place in the fabric... small or big, and sooner or later, we all have to accept it.
-Talon faced death at 11:11 AM

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Monday, September 03, 2007
Either my friendster profile got hacked into or something is seriously wrong with friendster. Dammit.
-Talon faced death at 11:19 AM

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Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Well... looks like a time for sadness and reflection for many people right now including yours truely. There will always be a need for people to feel sad, whatever the suffering is. Its a time of reflection of how things had been in the past and how things came to be. Sometimes its these times which leave scars, some emotional some physical. But watever it is things won't stay the same. The only thing constant in life is change. Just as the happy times didn't last forever, so will the sad times. Life is a mixture of these two things and you can't have the good without the bad. This rule is seen in all things... for every form of thing in this universe there is always the anti. So... your tears may fall but the reason for it may change in the future. Never loose hope. It is the only thing that brings us our desires
-Talon faced death at 5:00 PM

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Monday, August 27, 2007
The end of an era

At last it has come to the point of time that i've gotta say goodbye to my favourite place in the world to hang out at... Kaki5. I'm sooo gonna miss all the great times i had there like all the birthdays that i spent there including mine. And of course the food! I'm definately gonna miss that.. particularly: Roti Boyan which comes with my favourite sambal, Chicks on fire (which i always order as hot chicks haha), the spicy chicken soup (YUMMY!), the spicy chicken spegghetti, the chicken drumlets which also comes with the sambal (to die for especially after a night of pubbing) and last but not least, my favourite drink... mineral water hahaha.

Yesterday, alas, was the last day and my last meal there was Roti Boyan. I savoured every bit till the end. Oh and of course pics pics pics. I started snapping at everything there that i was gonna miss, the familiar faces, the fire
extinguisher, and of course Adi and Wayu who made this all possible. I've had nothing but good memories at Kaki5. *sigh* as they say... all good things must come to an end. (but the shishaing will carry on tho ;) )

Well... time to find a new place to hang out at after work and on the weekends. It's never gonna be the same again tho.
-Talon faced death at 2:49 PM

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Friday, August 24, 2007
Today in Talon's world we explore the world of the supernatural

Have you ever had your neck skin crawl while you were walking down on a lonely street in the middle of the night? What is it with the night that makes people afraid that something would pop out and say boo with a detached head or some other gory or inhuman fashion statement?

My take on it is that humans are just afraid of things they don't understand. Who knows? Next time pontianak or something comes they could be just passing by and are the least bit interested in you... until you scream or acknowledge their presence that is. Maybe that just makes them annoyed and it makes them want to shoo you away.

I had a few dreams these past few days. The last one ended with my talking to a little girl saying that the end of the world is coming... and it all starts when Man U and Liverpool are having a match at our dear National stadium and an earthquake happens (she told me it's gonna be 2.7 on the richter scale too). Hmmmm now how would that happen? well who knows? Maybe when the new stadium is done they might invite them over fer a match?

Dreams can be kinda creepy... but again its all because we don't really understand what they mean. Mankind is constantly trying to make sense of things that we don't understand. Once the knowledge is in place and we know what to do about these happenings i guess it'll be like the ghostbusters... ghosts would be regular things in the world. If our friendly Govt had anything to do about it, they may be even be given jobs to be more productive and lend a hand to the nation. CPF might be a problem tho cus they might live on forever so they won't get their lumpsum. But... the govt always does come up with some kinda policy to "fix" things.
-Talon faced death at 3:31 PM

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Tuesday, August 14, 2007
I AM SO FRIGGIN T I R E D!!!

BUT ... i did have fun on Sunday at escape theme park... the best ride was the go-cart. Only speeding i've ever done in singapore haha.. speeding around corners, speeding past the traffic warden, speeding downslope. haha now that was FUN. After that it was back to arab street fer shisha and relaxation.

And then the tiredness began... Monday, back to work and more work. Sigh.... as soon as i start to hve some fun, something comes in to bring me back to working stress. After work i went home and slept the rest of the day n night from 8 to 11 and from 12 to this morning at 830.

and now im dreading the feeling that i gotta go work tonite... arrrrgh. Sorry about this life but U SUCK!

In related news, this game called Shattered galaxy has been in my main field of interest fer the past few weeks. Been staying up late (another possible reason why im so tired now) playing it.

I need a holiday
-Talon faced death at 10:42 AM

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Wednesday, July 25, 2007
At last a day without much problems. Things seem to be going well so far. Been watching youtube on videos by enigma n prodigy... brings back memories of poly life haha. Can't believe its been so long since ive heard these tunes.

Hmmm alotta talk about saving the earth in singapore recently and going green. Well its all good and i fer one agree with the campaign... hmmm campaign (as singapore always does when someone wants something done). But it is sad that its not an inherent thing in every humans heart to take care of the only home we've got... we having the power to do anything in the world including destroy ourselves should know better.. hundreds of hundreds of years of human knowledge and it is only now that we have decided to do something about the stuff we do to nature.... mmm better late than never anyways

Meanwhile in the microcosmos.. mum n dad are away fer the next few days to malaysia and im bored at home (trying to cut down on shishaing as well.... blasphemy!!) So what do i do? practically veg out in front of my pc, watching tv, playing games and watching yahoo... oh and not to mention 2 days failed attempts to make my own version of fried rice hahaha.... theres just not enough taste dammit!!!
-Talon faced death at 7:06 PM

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Tuesday, July 24, 2007
well i'm bored again... but what else is new? Came home after a damn busy day... these past few weeks have been soo damn busy with one engineer down n i'm like doing the job of 2 people... too tired even to go fer shisha after work.

I was so bored that fer the past 2 days i've been coming home to make a mess in the kitchen tryin to make a better plate of fried rice... mmm needs more work n less soya sauce. hmmm maybe i should add sugar... ughhh... NOT!

Anyways... whats in the Eric zone lately? well sometime back i went fer this free photoshoot at Naughty by nature. In short they took pics of me and offered to print out the pics for me fer a fee (steep fee). I declined but in the end they said the pics were good and asked me if i would let them keep it... i signed a form of consent... n guess what? about more then a year later, now, one of my friends tell me that he saw a huge pic of me there when he brought his family over fer a photoshoot :P haha n i forgot all about it

mmm what else is there... im bored.. oh but yeah we covered that. hmmmm a girl. lets leave it at that.

Mitsubishi Lancer/ Mazda 3/ Toyota Vios? which one which one? Anyways... whichever i choose in the end... i hope i get it by the end of this year... arrrgghhh
-Talon faced death at 9:40 PM

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Sunday, July 22, 2007
5 things i usually do when i'm bored:
1) Head on down to arab street to have shisha
2) Call my friends down to head on down to arab street to have shisha
3) Watch a movie and then head on down to arab street to have shisha
4) Go pubbing/clubbing and then head on down to arab street to have shisha
5) Head on down to arab street to have shisha and do some sketches

hmmm.... its getting a bit monotonous no?

Maybe its time i did something other than just have shisha. I go there almost everyday these days and other thand takin up a huge chunk of my cash flow.... its kinda getting a little... dareisay?.... boring.

Well for a CHANGE, last nite i met up with Vera, Nayson n Jason at S'goon gardens. We drank like 2 glasses of wine each (minute quantity), played scrabble n rounded the night off with tai ti.

As usual i had a slight craving fer shisha but decided against it while on the way there... i was a little too lazy to go all the way to arab st n come all the way back again.

And then i wanted to go today again... but... no one was gng today so i decided not to again.. n besides... i had sme good company over MSN... chatting with Vera hehe.

If you ask me now, the craving fer a smoke is still strong but so is the fact that im too lazy to get up frm bed now =p
-Talon faced death at 9:32 PM

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Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Today during lunch, i started thinking about my mom n all the stuff in the past... how i've treated her n how shes treated me... i daresay i was on the verge of tears cus... damn... i've never said i love you mom other than mother's day and even that on a card. So... what did i do? I was inspired to write a poem for her... this ones called

For My Mom
For the uncountable times the tears you shed
For all the things you have given uncompared

For times whenever i wasn't there
For things i've done that were just not fair

Theres things i wish that i could do
To take away the pain that i've caused you

Thank you mom for all the things you went through
Fo what it's worth, i love you

n then i SMSed her... guess what happened next?

My mom asked me why i msged her those words cus its makin her worried... hahahaha
I told her that i just wanted to say something nice fer once.

hehe she said thanx... i think i made her happy =)
-Talon faced death at 7:24 PM

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Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Tagged!

I`ve been tagged by Kazeybaby !

RULES OF THE GAME: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!

1) I vomited blood the previous Sat after ingesting Alcohol way too fast. (The vomit was only cus of some inflammation of the throat tho.... should i *sigh* here?)

2) I'm having an emotional crisis (so what else is whats new?).. I dunno if id make a good BF/Husband/Father/Grandfather.

3) I love SHISHA!!! Cheaper than alcohol, I dun feel like puking when ive had too much n i dun feel like shit the next day so i can do it on weekdays n still go to work.

4) As a kid, i almost ran away to Bukit Timah Hill to find adventure

5) I need to be alone sometimes

6) I love CHICKEN meat!

7) I miss being in school n waiting fer the holidays to come so i can veg out at home in front of the television... (but then again the tv programs these days are really sucky... specially the cartoons... whatever happened to Mask n GI Joe n Transformers n Defenders of the Earth kinda toons??!!)

8) Sometimes i imagine myself being the most powerful person in the universe who's able to wield fire n lightning ... but these days i wonder what i'm gna do with all that power if their only use is to destroy (There isnt even a super villian to fight)

9) I've got a room that gets messy as soon as i start to clean it up

10) Theres alot of things that i'd love to do and theres nothing i wouldn't try at least once but theres somethings that are just not meant for me

PS: this game was Leeched from Kazeybaby's blog.
PSPS: Please feel free to rip it off
-Talon faced death at 10:03 PM

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Friday, December 15, 2006

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

LOL!!!
-Talon faced death at 3:47 PM

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Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Its the day after...

Special thanks to Kaze, Selina, Anil, Jamie and Fabian for the great bbq at East Coast one of the best nights i've had and the great presents! You guys rock!!

Well the big 3 0 is here and i still don't feel like how i thought it was supposed to be. I still go partyin, i'd still go fer gigs and jamming, i still laugh like a madman at jokes, i still love playing console n pc games, i still would collect action figures (Tod McFarlane), read fantasy novels, draw and i still watch cartoons.

And then there are the additions to my life of course... stress at work in particular. But then again theres other stuff like shisha, great friends, my newfound faith and yoga. 30 years on Earth sure has given me alot of things to think about. Looking back.. there a sure a heckuvalot of things i've done some that i regret (sad to say) and some that i wish i could do all over again and again. One of the greatest lessons ive learnt in all these years is to always cherish the moment... cus it may never happen again.

Thanx again.. to all the wonderful people i've met in my journey... thank you for making me a part of your lives
-Talon faced death at 11:13 AM

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Thursday, November 09, 2006
Its 1030am and i'm staring at the screen blankly now.. nothing is coming into my mind and everything is flowing out automatically. My colleagues are doing their own work. I'm practically forced to endure the constant humming of the servers around me till i leave the office around 6pm later on... just waiting for a call to go out now..

Anyways.. my PC is up and running at the moment... a $280 investment in a motherboard and a cpu took care of that... oh not to mention the late nights i've been having trying to figure out why it could go through the net and trying to figure out why the Creative soundcard couldnt work.

I'm tempted now... to buy:

1) LCD monitor
2) Razer Tarantula keyboard
3) 02x 1GB RAM modules
4) 80gb sata/ide harddisk

hmm i guess my mind isnt blank after all... i still got these things running in my mind right now.

and these things, i HAVE to buy:

1) 02x Extension cables for my keyboard and mouse
2) 01x Extension cable for my monitor

why do i need extension chords? cus im integrating my bed with my pc. My ultimate plan is to have my monitor at the foot of my bed, my 5 speakers on each bed post and my woofer under my bed (i've already wired n tested out the speaker part). My cpu is currently at my left hand side for easy reach to insert dvds and on/off/reset.

I just installed Doom 3 last night and played till about 2am... man the sound system is sooo good.. next thing i'm gonna be trying is playing it without any lights on... thats gonna be one good experience...

... well it 1047am and i just got a call at 3pm.. somewhere near my place too.. here we go again.
-Talon faced death at 10:32 AM

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Wednesday, November 08, 2006
A wierd dream post

I woke up this morning remembering another dream tats sooo vivid. It all started when my family and i were in a car travelling along some expressway n i was lookin at this bike rider who was riding at breakneck speed on her R1... next thing i knew the tail flipped up n the bike flew over the rider while the rider herself was thrown to oneside of the road. I got out n my dad n i took her outta the road n onto the right side of the road (which apparently had some shophouses now... hmm) We had to wait awhile before the cops came... while waiting, there were these three girls wearing nighties n lyin on a bed in the shop house beckoning me to come in.. i went n i found out they were ...ahem ....vampires =p i shant write the details of wat happened in between me n the 3 female vampires but it was whoaaaa =P =P n thats when i woke up thinkn "man tat last one was awesome"... muahahaha

Anyways.. back to reality now

I was looking at my friendster page n saw a bulletin from Melissa about Name meanings:

A : You like to drink.
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D : You like to drink.
E : Damn good kisser.
F : You are dead sexy.
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You have a very good personality and looks.
I : You Are Great in bed
J :People Adore you.
K :You're wild and crazy.
L : Everyone loves you.
M : Best kisser ever.
N : You like to drink.
O: awesome kisser.
P : You are popular with all types of people.
Q : You are a hypocrite.
R : ###### Crazy
S : Easy to fall in love with.
T : You're loyal to those you love.
U : You really like to chill.
V : You are not judgemental.
W : You are very broad minded.
X : You never let people tell you what to do.
Y : Best g/f b/f anyone could ever ask for
Z : Always ready

mine reads:

E : Damn good kisser.
R : ###### Crazy
I : You Are Great in bed
C : You are really silly.

V : You are not judgemental.
A : You like to drink.
D : You like to drink.
I : You Are Great in bed
V : You are not judgemental.
A : You like to drink.
L : Everyone loves you.
E : Damn good kisser.

Letsee now.. good kisser? well i like kissing but im not sure if im a good kisser.
###### crazy?.. yeap that i am. Hmm great in bed?... again im not sure.. i didnt bother to ask. I'm really silly?... mmm i remember someone who told me that once... shes sooo sweet. and fer the last few.. yes im not judgemental, no.. drinking is not a love.. just a social event, I like to think that everyone loves me.. i dun like having enemies.

Try it if you want to but it isnt accurate at all according to Melissa. hmm.. shes supposed to be easily to fall in love with but she sez that no one falls in love with her anymore.

So i went to her friendster page n lo n behold... shes single. Yes yes yes... i did have a crush on her... even dreamnt of her n me (NOT TAT KIND!). arghh i hate it when i do this to myself.. i think too much...
-Talon faced death at 3:11 PM

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Sunday, October 29, 2006
This next entry is dedicated to pre-halloween celebration

AWESOME!!!!!!!!!

I've never had a better halloween.... alll halloweens before last night just couldnt compare... i'm never gonna forget last night!

List of costumes i saw
1) Terrorists waving AK47s
2) Cavemen waving clubs
3) Gladiators
4) That shower costume that Daniel Larusso wore in Karate Kid
5) Devils n Angels
6) A giant Panda
7) A Lego man
8) People in bandages n blood
9) Hard Gay
10) A monkey in a suit
11) A guy who had his head in a television
12) The village people
13) A Geisha
14) A Nurse
15) Guys dressed up as members of PAP!!!! wahahahahaahah!!!!!!!


and the list just doesnt stop hahaha

Myself? i dressed up as Evilman haha my own concoction of a super hero/villian. Wearing a cape with a hood and a mask without a face, i scared alotta people that night muahahahaha... guys and girls thought that i was scary musch to my delight.

Ohhh and then there was the part when i was a devil priest and i married a Devil and an Angel off!!!hahahaha

If you werent celebrating Halloween... its such a pity you werent there cus it was the party of the year. From Vintage to Zouk to Gas Haus to Ministry of Sound... we partied allll night long till 6am!!!
-Talon faced death at 6:46 PM

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Friday, October 27, 2006
wow! this has been one heckuvan eventful month... my worlds going by pretty fast now. After that little incident that i wanna forget n never bring up again, things are going at mach 1. Lets see now...

I finally.. FINALLY passed my Basic theory test and am well on my way to finally getting a drivers license. HAHA dammit i shoulda done this ages ago.. Signing up at the school was the best move i ever made. E-trial tests are a big help cus they give the exact test questions... all you gotta do is memorize them.. n trust me theyre not too hard. I spent a total of 15mins on the real test n walked of with a PASS on my screen.

Last week i got a call from a friend who recommened me to this job at Sun Microsystems... basically its the same as what i'm doing right now but i'm askin fer $2500 fer my basic pay... and thers still standby allowance, OT pay, and a car allowance (which rumor sez is about $900).... hmmm do i hear a hello from my future car keys?

My mum is turning buddhist! whoaa of all the people in my family right now she is the last person i would think who would convert to another religion. But i can't blame her... the story about my family is that everyone follows whatever works... and since my grandmother was the head of the family, everyone more or less was hindu... under direct supervision of my grandma. But theres ALOT of things thats been changing since she passed away. My mum for one found her way into Buddhism... ohh n get this... one of the guys in the buddhist group is actually my poly mate!! the the place where my mum goes to do her chanting with the rest of the group is at his home! What a tangled web we weave... few years ago i was drinkin with him n his bro n were crashin at his place... hahah whod hve tot!

Soo many changes... and soo much more to come... what will the future hold?
-Talon faced death at 12:12 PM

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Tuesday, October 17, 2006
I'm so tired i wanna go sleep. Stuck in the office at the moment and waiting fer n email from a vendor... sigh waiting is the most boring part.

Anyways... shes outta my system and buried in the past. New things coming now. More stuff to do and plans to make
-Talon faced death at 12:51 PM

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Monday, October 09, 2006
Well the insaneness has finally past and i feel kinda normal again... kinda being the key word here. I talked to Amanda last night on msn and so far we've pretty much got alot to talk about... Key point being we talked till 545 this morning. I can sense that if i let myself go again.. the way i did just a few days ago, i'm probably gonna be thinking about her the whole day n night.. n like i said.. i didnt even have n appetite.

It felt better this morning when i woke up. My stomach was churning like it did and i'm not thinking about it so much... hmm i just messeged her wishin her a good day tho.
-Talon faced death at 1:36 PM

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Sunday, October 08, 2006
The past few days have been a myraid of events leading to my current state of mind.

It started from Thursday wheni met Liz's friends... Stephanie n Amanda. I think you guys are probably getting the idea. Yeap that L word (not from the tv series) is seeping itself into my life again... what am i going to do? I have no idea... except i keep thinking of Friday night when i brought Amanda to Vintage and then to MOS. All i can say is OMG. BUT (and theres always a but) i'm not sure how she feels... yes i know i know its too early to tell dammit. And besides that there a some... technical difficulties *sigh*.

I haven't been thinking about someone like how i am right now for ages... butterflies outta my stomach n loosing appetite (i'm supposed to break fast at 7 yesterday but i couldnt bring myself to eat anything.. only could drink water)...

Going insane
-Talon faced death at 2:51 PM

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Friday, October 06, 2006

Click me
-Talon faced death at 12:49 AM

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Monday, October 02, 2006
BOO... haha yeap i'm back. So what have i been up to recently? Fasting. haha yeap... i'm fasting.... Cus i wana feel what its like...


It started out last Tuesday... i managed to actually pull through the entire day without food or water BUT... it was later on that i found out that theres more to it than just not eating n drinking till ard 7.

From what information i gathered i also found out that youre supposed to wake up at around 5am to say prayers, drink water but not too much and then go back to ur regular things. After that youre not supposed to eat, drink, dig your nose/ears... basically there must be nothing entering your body.

I havent really got round to waking up at 5 in the morning to drink water but the closest i've come is last Tuesday. I was supposed to do it till Friday but the next day, i had to work really late and didnt know what time i was gonna get of work so that i can break the fast. Also on Thursday, i was in this server room which was probably 15 degrees or something and was in there from 10 to 3:30pm... that was when the customer saw my teeth chattering and made some tea fer me to warm me up and also cus i was working thru lunch.. By the time i left that room it was 6... i really dont think id have been able to do much work if i didn't warm up.

Why didnt i continue over the weekends? Cus it was party time =P N i need the water badly the next day when i wake up after a night of drinking.... specially if its wine i was drinking

Anyways, today is a new day and a new week... lets see if i can complete the fast for today... i've already been tempted by the free breakfast in my company for Monday mornings (your choice of either/both prata or/and been hoon with the side dishes which i didnt really bother looking at. And then there was my colleagues who till now have gone of to have coffee and possibly a snack or two at the nearest coffee shop and they asked me to come along... but i said it was ok n im fasting n i still had some work to be done anyway.... so thats 2 down.... in another half hour its gonna be lunch... the next barrier.

Sofar i cant feel the regular hunger i get like when before i started fasting. In a typical day, i'd get hungry by 1030am and would just wait fer luch. I guess its all in the mind with these things.

Also, as i said in a previous post, i'm doing 100 situps a day and i think the fasting is helping to accelerate the process of me getting my 6 pack... i mean i cant see it yet but i think my pants are loosening up pretty fast actually.

In other news, I just got information last night that they are making a Transformer movie... what we're talkin about here is live-action... cool right? BUT!... and thats one big butt, The vehicles are totally not what any Transformer fan is used to... Optimus prime has flames on his chassis, Bumble bee isn't a VW beetle (apparently VW didnt allow them to do it so hes a camaro) oh and he communicates through the radio cus his voicebox got damaged... old battle scar o_O, Megatron looks like a robot with blades growing all over his body and his face looks like the alien from 'Alien' (oh n btw he transforms into some kinda alien aircraft), Starscream looks like n ape, Scorponok is a tiny robot (hes SUPPOSED to transform into a decepticon city fer crying out loud!!!)

Ahh welll... no matter how much we complain, its not gonna get heard by any of the people at Hollywood and they're still gonna go through with their own version of it... although a huge percentage of the fans arent gonna be happy about it. And we're all gonna watch it anyway... if not to enjoy it, then to condemn it.

So... if youre planning on watching the 'Transformers' movie in 2007... watch it with an open mind and act like you dont know what the Transformers are about... you might just be able to enjoy it that way

Everyones out fer lunch and im still here writing this post... this is gonna be one of the longest post i've written hahaha

OK back to current news

On Saturday night, i went to a Friend, Elaine's, birthday party... hehe at PIZZA HUT!!!! that was awesome... its been a damn long time since i ate there.. mmmm delicious!!!... and then we went to Mr Bean for some coffee... well i had tea(earl grey instead... don't really like coffee. And then it was off to Vintage where i had 2 E33s and i left with another friend, Lawrence to have shisha, supper and one of the most longest chats i've had in a really long time at Arab street about religion. When we left Vintage it awas ard 130am and when we left for home it was ard 630am... totally awesome. I wont say exactly what we talked about that morning cus religion is a very sensitive issue but it was all good.

Goota go fer now... got a job at Science Park.... long way to go.
-Talon faced death at 11:24 AM

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Monday, September 25, 2006
In the bus just now, while travelling back home i suddenly wondered what my lifestyle would be like if i didn't go partying at clubs n going gigs n smokin shisha n jamming... my schedule would be pretty much opened up so much that i probably wouldnt know what to do with my time except work more. Damn... itd be like mind set on working 24hrs *shudder*.

Current schedule

Mon- Work(9am-6pm), Shisha/Movie/Dinner/Free(7.30pm-12am)
Tue- Work(9am-6pm), Shisha/Movie/Dinner/Free(7.30pm-12pm)
Wed- Work(9am-6pm), Shisha(7.30pm-12pm)
Thu- Work(9am-6pm), Free(7.30pm-12pm)
Fri- Work(9am-6pm), Shisha/Clubbing/Vintage(8pm-12pm)
Sat- Jamming(2pm-6pm), Shisha/Clubbing/Vintage(8pm-12pm)
Sun- Free(Whole day)

No Fun schedule

Mon- Work(9am-6pm), Free(6pm-12am)
Tue- Work(9am-6pm), Free(6pm-12pm)
Wed- Work(9am-6pm), Free(6pm-12pm)
Thu- Work(9am-6pm), Free(6pm-12pm)
Fri- Work(9am-6pm), Free(6pm-12pm)
Sat- Free(Whole day)
Sun- Free(Whole day)

Thats a heck of alot of time with nothing to do... all work n no play makes me n extrememly bored person n i dunno if i can do that right now... =S
-Talon faced death at 1:34 PM

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Saturday, September 23, 2006
So my computer is down and im using my laptop temporarily do do all my cyber stuff. Today i stripped my computer of all the stuff i need to give birth to a new computer. Smaller, faster and more reliable hopefully. But the thing is i gotta wait till payday b4 i can do anyhing.... rebirth, coming soon.

On other stories, i'm still looking fer a place to rent so if any of you guys know where i can get a room for ard $250, tell me about it please.

Its kinda weird typing from my laptop... keyboards not wat im used to.

Anyway, Kaze... go fix ur blog!
-Talon faced death at 8:07 PM

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Thursday, September 21, 2006

-Talon faced death at 7:30 PM

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A is for Another damned day at work
B is for Boy am i bored
C is for Cant wait ta get home
D is for Do i really need this crap?
E is for Errrrrr as i stare blankley out into space
F is for Fuck tat
G is for Grumble grumble
H is for Hey! i got n idea
I is for I shoulda thought of this sometime back
J is for Just in time when im wondering what to do
K is for Killing time with a new hobby
L is for LIking this new idea alot
M is for Mmmmmm blogging!!!
N is for Nah im just kidding
O is for Ohh man im talkin to myself now
P is for Please let time go fast as fast can be
Q is for Quah Quah Quah... cant think of anything with Q
R is for Release the beast
S is for So anyways....
T is for Time.. i hate time
U is for Umbilical chord
V is for Wat de hell
W is for Where is my darling when i need her?
X is for Xi be sian
Y is for Yumyum time in a few moments (Lunch)
Z is for Zzzzzzz for now

PS I'm bored
PSPS 17711,34,2584,46368 610,144,5,17711,21 46368,4181,121393,34,610,17711,233,17711
-Talon faced death at 10:54 AM

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Tuesday, September 19, 2006
I found a new way to hurt myself today... situps... 100 situps. I think i shoulda done it in 5 sets of 20 instead of going at it all at one time =S ill try it again tomorrow... hope it hurts real bad in the morning so i know im still alive muahahaha... getting psychotic there. Anyways.. gnite all
-Talon faced death at 2:02 AM

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Sunday, September 17, 2006

How evil are you?
-Talon faced death at 3:13 PM

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So since the hottest topic right now is mrry go rounds and see saws, i went on n searced the net but was unable as to ascertain the reason for the given names. But i did learn that merry-go-rounds are also called carousels and see-saws are also knwn as teetertotters so if youre not happy wit one of the names, you can always use the other ;)

And then i came by a message post talking about merry-go-rounds where one guy was saying that we all already are one one... the Earth. Which reminded me of something i say at the beginning of every year... yaay we have successfully come around the Earth one round and are all celebrating that fact.

But to be more precise, what we have in fact done is come around the sun in the perspective of when Jesus was born... 0000AD

Each of us in fact complete our trip around the Sun on the day we got on this damn merry-go-round ride.... our birthdays! Which means that each of us has our own calenders.... heck we could probably name our own weekends n holidays!!

So what happens if a baby is born in space and lives its entire lifespan there? How would it take its referance point for time if it doesnt know of planets going around yellow stars or religious landmark events?

Would the only measure of time be the constant occurences of new things? Like in the case of the space baby, aging for example?

We live our lives on this blue,green blob in the dense blanket of dark matter, going around a huge nuclear fire and partyin like tribal people everytime we complete a round. And every moment in between completing that round, we experience every human emotion n experience possible making up the path of our lives to the very end.... when we finally get off... and then what happens?

I'm bored
-Talon faced death at 2:15 PM

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Welcome to E.R.I.C. radio and here's the news in brief:

Headlines:

Hope you guys enjoyed my last post.... i know i did hahahaha. Well im listening to darkwave radio uk on live 365 right now... if ur not sure what online radio is... go to http://www.live365.com n you should get some instructions there on how to listen to their online radio.. there are many many genres so im sure non of you will get left out.

I slept like the dead yesterday...really... i came back ard 4 yesterday morning n slept the day, noon and night away till ard 2am this morning. I spent 2am to 6am watching Whos line is it from You tube hahaha seriously thats the funniest shit i've everseen...
i still think my favourite game on Whos line is it is soundeffects muahahahaha... anyways go check it out!!

Electronics:

My PDAs workin out pretty well... except that its pretty sensitive. When i put it back into its casing it tends to redial the last person i talked to unless i lock the screen.... dammit. My desktop is still down till i buy new parts so im still on my laptop for the moment... cant watch tv dammit. but i got into exploring online tv... still not sure where to get the good channels tho.

Relationship:

Jo u r one friggin lucky asshole hahahaha.... from what i've heard... my guitarist is havin one friggin good time with his new gf... best of luck mate... hhaha u lucky sob. Seriously... from what hes telling me... thats the way it should be. N he managed to psycho me into msgin someone a few days ago... thanx man... it feels much better now.

Coming soon:

Slayer... Oct 13th... 3 weeks... very very very soon. muahahahaah!

Halloweeen!!!!! dammit i still havent finished my wings... i need to find a stable way to piece together the limbs!! argghhH!!!

what to do fer the rest of the day.... im stumped
-Talon faced death at 1:06 PM

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Thursday, September 14, 2006
Ok guys... i've been putting this away for too long. I've been having dreams about it and i think it's about time i settled this right here n right now... Here goes nothing....



I'm opening the packing guys... passing the point of no return.


Man its been so long that i've almost forgotten how tight the packaging can be to open. The wrapper being torn apart by my awaiting fingers now... i'm thinking if it does still have the same effect as it used to when it touched my tounge ages ago.

At last.. the raw brown flesh pulsating with sweet deliciousness waiting... beckoning me.

First bite... my teeth sink into the flesh bringing back the familiar aromas and tastes that come with what has been taboo to me for a long time now. It melts on my tounge and i enjoy every moment as my vicious chomping and saliva break the first bit down. Yes... it is all i expected it to be. BUT WAIT! Theres more!





May tastebuds scream in delight as the 2nd and third bite followed and the rhythmic chewing released more of the maelstrom of senses long held back.



I deftly tear more of the wrapping and continue my euphoric onslaught knowing all too well that the end would be coming soon with every bite i take. But i continue ravaging what was left nontheless.



After the second last bite i stop... and now for the last... I look upon all that was left. I began this journey out of curiosity and a craving... and now i'm left with all but a memory and the last bite. A bite that i will cherish well for times to come. And remember for another day when the craving is upon me again... but for now...



Ahhh... the succulant flesh rolled down my tounge and melted. It has ended...





Pictures courtesy of Dopod 818 pro
-Talon faced death at 5:33 PM

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006
MSN sucked balls last night... ahh well it was only one night. Anyways... last fri n sat turned out ta be party night... again. hahah so much fer saving fer last weekend. I MUST STOP SPENDING!! ARGGGGGHHHH!!!!! This week i must do it!

Yesterday was a sucky day to spend my leave... family problems... it was also the day that i was reachingg boiling point and almost exploded at some guy who was irritating me at the damn foodcourt... its a good thing he admitted that it was his mistake and he was sorry about it.

Well it wasn't tat much of a bad day one the 2nd half though... i had shisha with Wan n Liz n it was pretty good yesterday. After that it was home and another 5.2km run in the park.. at the end of the run i caught myself thinking why cant life be as easy as running around the park... i guess i know the answer to that so...

At work right now and its 10:14... im talkin to Jo n Kaze over email... apparantly Jos gotten serious with a girl hahahaha... good fer you man!

I remember the happiness of days gone by
When things were so glorious that you could cry
And everyday was a day was a day i'd pine
That you'd be forever mine

hmm... ah well....
-Talon faced death at 9:32 AM

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Sunday, September 10, 2006
Check this out guys


-Talon faced death at 8:26 PM

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Friday, September 08, 2006
To go or not to go... that is the question haunting me the whole day. I got three people askin me to go to Vintage and im not sure if i should go cus i wana save some cash fer some stuff... arggghhh. i had being indecisive... its not getting me anywhere.

I could go to Arab st and have sisha alone (well not really alone cus i might bump into people i know there) and then come back home ard 1130 to go fer a run OR i could go to Vintage (potentially spending ard 50 on drinks there) and go home hi probably around 3 in the morning.. thats excludin cab fare OR i could go to Vintage (potentially spending ard 50 on drinks there) go to arab st and have shisha and go home hi probably around 4 or 5 in the morning.

So lets say the last option is abit too much. So lets decide between arab st n vintage.

Going to arab st:
1) Get to smoke shisha ($12.60)and a mineral water ($1.20)
2) Get to possibly meet people i know there
3) Get to talk crap till 1130pm
4) Go home by bus for a 5.2km run

Min spending: $13.80

Going to Vintage:
1) Get to drink till high (>$30)
2) Get to definately meet people i know
3) Get to talk like a madman till 3 (thats when they close)
4) Go home by cab and sleep ($12)

Min Spending: $42

hmmmmm im tempting myself to go Vintage... arrgggghhhhh awrite awrite ill go Vintage but i gotta make sure i dont use up more than $30.
-Talon faced death at 6:59 PM

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Monday, September 04, 2006
So heres the scoop. Sat night was so awesome... well at least for the part when all of us where still at vintage celebrating the opening. Selina, Kaze, the regulars as usual and Cecilia =) We partied, we headbanged, we air guitared, we ki.. nah we didnt do that hahaha... well we partied whole night long n i dropped of at arab street for a smoke n guess what.... i lost my K750i Sonyfukinericsson handphone... i was cursing the whole night till i woke up at 4 n rushed down to starhub to get a new phone.. already had one in my mind too.. th Dopod 818 Pro.

Its a pretty good organizer n phone n apparently its supposed to be the hottest selling organizer right now. Oh and apparently if i got the pink one itll be $20 bucks cheaper o_O YUCK! Anyways i also decided to change my age old plan that was losing me a considerable amount of money to something new that suited me more. It costs me about $45 and since my company is payin $75 off my bill i might end up payin nothing myself... on the pessimistic side.. it took me losing my phone b4 i noticed that grrrrrrr!!!!!!

Next thing i bought was a G-shock.. i decided its about time (dun mind the pun) that i got something to tell me the time instead of relying totally on my hp. Something i been meaning to do for a loooong imte but never got round to doing it. And lastly i got myself a laptop bag fer work... guess i just need to organize my stuff right now.
-Talon faced death at 5:54 PM

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Friday, September 01, 2006
Tats it! Jst a few more hours of work and then its off to delicious satay fest at eminent plaza!! Damn i've been havin a huge ass craving fer satay!! I'm gonna totally satisfy my cravin by eatin nothing but satay fer dinner tomorrow!! muahahah!!

Anyways... i'm not sure if you guys mosey on down to Talkin cock or The Mr Brown Show webbies but in case you don't you might wana click on the right hand side of my blog to the sites. The latest thing thats been hit... other Mee Siam mai hum... is the Talkin cock in parliment event that talkin cock organised recently.

Dammit i missed that event due to some other schedule but anyways for all of u who missed it.. dont fret cus theres still hope! If you click on the link fer Mr Brown Show, you'd be able to download videos (3 sofar) of the people who spoke that night... BTW Ruby Pan ROCKS!!! wahahahahaha that one made me laugh the whole night.. so... dont waste precious d/lin time n go check out the videos! (theyre pretty big but very clear)

On other news, my damned computer is down so i'm resorting to using my laptop to surf n update my blog... bummer. I gotta get ard to fixin that thing soon... beginning to miss all the stuff i can do with my computer =D

Sat nites gonna be one of those nights again hahaha drinkin n partyin the night away at vintage... apparently theres gonna be a Lion dance event at 6 and then food at 630 haha i'm gonna be there fer that. Hopefully i dont get too hi cus i wanna wake up the next morning ard 9 or earlier fer a run. Well gotta go sleep now... and dream a little dream of satay =p....
-Talon faced death at 1:43 AM

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Wednesday, August 30, 2006
At class right now... we're all takin a break before starting on the next chapter. I'm feeling damn hungry... dmmit.. missed last nite's run.. i was hoping to go fer 5.2km runs for 3 days in a row but i was too shacked out last nite. Slept damn early last nite and now im wide awake.

Cant wait ta get off work. I might be going for some shisha tonight if Wans going... not too sure if thats gonna happen tho. What i really need right now is a looooong holiday
-Talon faced death at 11:06 AM

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Monday, August 28, 2006
haha check this out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftD-9oPMEPA
-Talon faced death at 1:37 AM

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Damn tired right now after the past few days of partyin... i need to slow down pronto or im gna get bored of partyin.

Meanwhile i got a course next week from Mon to fri... thats gonna suck. I need to do somethin new to entertain myself.
-Talon faced death at 12:23 AM

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Sunday, August 27, 2006
Was lookin at some old pictures just now... you know sometimes when you look back at memories, you wonder how things changed so much and turn out how they are now... one thing always leads to another... well... heres to memories....



This one was one of Kaze's birthday parties.... one that im proud to say was a friggin success organized by Selina and yours truely hahaha it was one helluva night n dont you forget it KAZE!!!



Well it wasn't much of a success but it was fun nevertheless... it was halloween n there were people dressed up!! I hope the coming ones are gonna be better n keep getting better!!



My birthday hahaha thanx guys... it was and yet another awesome night... every minute of it was fabulous!!!



The day Frozen Scythe was formed!!!!



This was Lights of Orion with all its members... its just too bad that things didn't really work out.



SLIPKNOT PHOTOSHOOT!!! haha that was one of the most awesome things i did.


The above amd more are all the things i've experienced with all the people in my life. Its amazing the things all of us have been through all this time. When you look back at things like these, you really have to treasure the moment because they never come back again... only in memories
-Talon faced death at 7:51 PM

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Thursday, August 24, 2006



You scored as XIII: Death.

Death is probably the most well known Tarot card - and also the most misunderstood. Most Tarot novices would consider Death to be a bad card, especially given its connection with the number thirteen. In fact this card rarely indicates literal death.Without "death" there can be no change, only eventual stagnation. The "death" of the child allows for the "birth" of the adult. This change is not always easy. The appearance of Death in a Tarot reading can indicate pain and short term loss, however it also represents hope for a new future.

XIII: Death 94%
0 - The Fool 69%
II - The High Priestess 69%
XV: The Devil 69%
IV - The Emperor 69%
I - Magician 63%
VIII - Strength 56%
XI: Justice 50%
XVI: The Tower 44%
III - The Empress 38%
X - Wheel of Fortune 31%
VI: The Lovers 19%
XIX: The Sun 13%
-Talon faced death at 5:48 PM

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Wow.. i've been reading through all my old entries... man this blog has cme a long way. It sarted from that spark in my life which wanted me to start a blog in the first place... After she left tho i almost wanted to throw it all away but somehow decided to keep writing... about my disappointments, my delights, my dreads, my dreams, my dilemmas, my defeats and always about my destruction.

After all this time my current conclusion on love is that its not gonna happen no matter what people say. I still remember the moment in time when i began this blog. Things where happy... i even told myself that it may last forever... i wished that feeling to last forever. I wished that it was the path that i would tread to the end. I remember the perfume, the excitement, the joy.... but thats all it is right now.... a memory.

My current conclusion on death is its gonna happen sooner or later. I guess i need at least that closure since im not getting the other one.

My conclusion on my job is tat it still sux and is not what i wanna do fer the rest of my life... well whatevers left of it.

All in all i think im deep in the sludge of severe disillusionment about love and hope.

In the meantime, i'm on leave today, feeling damn bored but thats gonna go away in awhile cus im gonna be meeting Katrina n the rest at Gas Haus.
-Talon faced death at 5:01 PM

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Penguin Bully


-Talon faced death at 4:11 PM

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This week is like a party week... last nite i was at Gotham penthouse, tonite i'll be headin to gas haus, tomorrow nite to vintage n sat nite ill be at vinatage again... BUT i'm not gonna be drinkn much tonite n the following days ... after last nite ... i think i've had enough drinks to last me till next week.
-Talon faced death at 2:06 PM

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Monday, August 21, 2006
As you guys can see... i'm making some changes to this place. Decided it kinda needs a little update. And if you noticed... now i have a wish list.... why have a wish list you may ask if the thing i want most is only a memory now? .... well there are other things that i want in place of it.
-Talon faced death at 9:28 PM

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The day went to the zoo yesterday. I caught some of the animals on my cam...




This was done while Selina n Kaze were holding crackers in front of the otters ;)



I guess this ones my favourite pic



Female bear who just finished molting



Male bear who is currently molting n splashing around in the water



The Bear and the bird



Eatin



Hot Day



Damn were the animals thirsty



Lionesses



Penguins



Thats a colourful one



This guy reminds me of myself when im eating KFC Chicken, he basically ripped off all the flesh from this chunk of meat tat was tied to tat wooden stump by a thin rope. And THEN he ripped the bone from the rope (which snapped while he was tugging it) and swallowed the whole thing! Talk about hungry... now TAT is a dragon



Cautious



Yawn



Admiring the scenary



Admiring the scenary from the foliage



Yo!



Sentry duty.... SAF gaurd duty kiss my ass



whatchulookinat?



Lazy Sunday morning
-Talon faced death at 1:26 AM

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Holy crap i just ran 5.2km tonight!! Tats a new record fer me hahaha. Well it was Wans bday today .. Happy Birthday dude... haha you shoulda seen the look on ur face wen ur present came out muahahahahaha
-Talon faced death at 1:15 AM

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Sunday, August 13, 2006
haha i think yesterday night was like the 4th time on stage fer me n the 2nd time fer my current band!! Yeah we were playin at the new vintage... it was too bad that most of the people there were mostly into rock but they still liked the maiden covers we did. hahaha n it was one awesome night... think i broke my record on e33 drinkin ;)
-Talon faced death at 10:24 PM

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Saturday, July 29, 2006
Feeling: Extremly disenchanted, Empty
Current situation: Thinkin more with my head than with my heart
Chosen path: Singularity

Yeap... i've at last come to a point that i dont care fer having a gf. Im perfectly comfortable being alone. I dont care about how long i gotta wait anymore because i don't care about having any relationship.... from now onwards its officialy gonna be me myself and i only. My only sadness .... perfection is not a reality.
-Talon faced death at 9:01 AM

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Friday, July 28, 2006
Ok... like i said before.. im interested in gettin a house. What i'm lookin at is this 2rm or 3rm flat at Sengkang... preferably 2rm. Its far but hey tats gna mean im gonna have more cash to spend fer a car ;). THe main problem is the damn age.... apparently the requirement is that if you're single you need to be 35 to get a hdb flat. But the thing is i heard somewhere that they revised this law. I think i'm gonna have to make a trip to the HDB soon to check it out... damn itd be sooo cool to own a house under my name!!!
-Talon faced death at 9:12 AM

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Monday, July 24, 2006
The alluring sleek curvacious body, the thrill of the ride, the exhilaration, the testosterone explosion... what am i talkin about now? A car!! haha yeap its becoming a temptation now. I'm constantly being brainwashed into buying a car and now im catching myself lookin at cars... and evaluating the pros n cons...

Pros: 1) Easier to get around anytime, anyday n anywhere. 2) The potential speeds that i might be able to go to satisfy my speed craving MUAHAHAHA. 3) I dont have to carry stuff when im moving around singapore anymore!!!... n that goes fer work n play. 4) I dont have to brave the sun n rain to go places either!!! 5) Well with the coming raise in public transport i might as well go private.

Cons: 1) I'm gonna be in debt fer 10years wit the bank... major bummer. 2) I'ts gonna be a killer finding parking space... especially if im in a hurry and its in town. 3) Its gonna open me to more splurging of money (I'm definately gonna be doing mods on my car)

Well basically its convienience versus money... i hate being in debt tho..... and then there is tat other thing that i wanna get.... a house. I know a house should come 1st but i dunno.... a car is like a CAR DUDE!!
-Talon faced death at 7:27 PM

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Thursday, May 25, 2006
Meant to be

So it came to pass that my National Service Letter came one fine day. On the day, Dec 14 1999, i was required to report to Pasi Ris Interchange where a bus would pick me up and head to the ferry terminal where i was to take a ferry to Pulau Tekong. It felt just like going on a trip, exciting nervous not knowing what to expect but with the added emotion of hatred. After saying my goodbyes to my parents, i embarked on my journey to complete the most hated part of my life. It was a tough journey.. not as tough as most people who went through it but going through the 2 and a half years of restrictions was enough for me.

At the end of the entire duration you can only imagine the relief i felt. Having given back my pink ic i felt empowered once again to do my will. Although it feels like a thorn pricking you from time to time when you still have to report back to camp once a year for reservist.

It was work life for me now. All i had to do was earn and enjoy myself... simple? No... it never is. I got a job at an IT company within a month. It was a good paying job and it was intersting to a certain level. My colleagues treated me well. And even though i didn't really like the director, i was compelled to stay for 3 years in that company before i finally decided on leaving.

In 2005 July, i left my company to join my current one. Its the same job but owing to the increased volume in work its gotten abit more complex with much more paperwork to file in. My colleagues are good. But guess what? The job itself is becoming something that i find a burden to me. Its gone to such a state where its totally different from what i wanted to do in the first place and it isn't something i want to do for the rest of my life like another colleague of mine whos been doing it for 10 years.

It is time for change.
-Talon faced death at 3:10 PM

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Thursday, April 20, 2006
Was not ever....

It was in poly that the shell i wrapped myself in started falling apart. My circle of friends started to grow, i dared do more things that i wouldn't dream of doing earlier in my life and more things seemed possible to me. I embraced Metal completely as the music tat i couldnt live without for the rest of my life. But my beginning here meant an ending to my old life. Nevertheless, I met another close friend, Mark, who shared many similar interests as me. So much that we even skipped classes to go catch movies, get our comics and action figures... and so on.

Girls... the other major thing on our minds... the one word our raging hormones screamed out whenever our radar detected one in close proximity. They were out there alright but there was never one i could get close to... until the final year that is. Anyways... im not gonna go into my love life. Lets just say somethings are best left untold and unknown.

My poly days where the times i will always remember that i started to be self aware. Suddenly i felt that i had great power. It was the beginning but still everything has to start somewhere.

Movies were a major event at that time. I watched every single screening. Be they in English or another Language (except Tamil of course). I had movie marathons where we watches 3 or 4 movies a day. I watched movies alone when no one wanted to. And once id exhausted all movie options... id just wait for the next one to come. The life of a movie addict.

Yes, i enjoyed this life immensly... but often i looked over my shoulder to see the impending peril that was still to come. This was only the calm before the storm of National Service.... to be cont'd
-Talon faced death at 12:53 PM

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Sunday, April 16, 2006
What came to pass....

My life in Toh Tuck Primary as i said before lasted only 2 years. Why did i leave? I hated the place and the teachers. I was asked by my principle why i chose this path and i simply told him it was cus the upper primary students were not the kind id want to mix with. Yeap this was lying at its infancy. And so i left the school (Some years later, i visited the place... it was being demolished for an American School. I walked the empty halls remembering the past with fondness but that was all the past was... to be remembered)

The last 2 years of my Primary School life was spent in Bukit View Primary. A much bigger and newer school. As with my past 2 schools, i had to start anew. New friends, new teacher to get used to. I was starting afresh. i met with the same problems though. Tamil for a start sucked as usual. My Maths skills was at n alltime low. During this last 2 years, one of my major skills that came to pass was the art of lying. Yeap, it had grown and saved my skin from alot of needless caning from my parents for the lousey test scores. But all things considered i managed to pull through my PSLE and the next phase in my eduaction started at Bukit View Secondary School.

I met an old friend from Toa Tuck there. I didn't meet him till the Sec 3 though. There were 2 sessions and i was in the morning while he was in the afternoon. It was around this time that the opposite sex had roused my curiousity. Girls... ,one of the great mysteries of the universe at that time, alongside black holes and god. Yet i couldnt put myself to a position where i could go ahead and ask them out. Well as i've said, i wasn't a social person. My Math skills again started to deteriorate but my English and Art got better results. History and Geography wasnt that hot either but i had a knack for Physics and a little on Chemistry. And as usual Tamil was at an all time low for me. It was at Sec 2 that i started mixing with more Indiam people and that was a very bad idea for someone whos had a very bad time communicating in Tamil. I recall at Sec 2, my Tamil teacher gave us all a quiz to check on how much Tamil plays a part in our everyday lives. All my answers were NO. I didnt watch Tamil moveis no listen to Tamil songs, i didnt read Tamil newspapers or books and i didn't even converse in Tamil at my house. So.. i barely got by mixing with my Indian friends. I was more like the outcast of the group... the guy who had extreemly little in common with any of them. But they were the only 'friends' i had at that time. And so i endured the crap i had thrown in my face... until sec 4 when we all got split up and i started to hang around friends from other races. They proved to be better choices than what i had previously. And that was when i met my best friend, Umar. He thought me the guitar and introduced me to Metal. He inspired me in art as well and that was when i really got attracted to art. Those where the years i hold more dear to me. It was then that i was finally home... even though it was a short time. After that my Polytechnic life came and a whole new way of life began.... to be cont'd
-Talon faced death at 11:04 AM

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Thursday, April 06, 2006
In the beginning.....

My journey started in a hospital, then to Toa Payoh. I lived in my grandma's place when i was young. I think i led a pretty sheltered life. Mostly cus of my grandma... she used to spoil me alot... specially since i was the first born child. I always did what i was told to do since i always thought at that time that thats what makes people happy. Nothing else seemed to please my parents or my relatives. In my family, doing well in school is the only think that i ever saw that pleased them. They left you alone only when there was really nothing for you to do at all. And since going out to play with the neighbours could also potentially mean buts and bruises, the only option left was the tube... ahh yes the only place at that time that i could fly off into space and see strange new worlds, feel the power of magic surging through me as i sear flesh with plasma beams from my eyes. I guess all those years of television is what made my mind the way it is now... craving for more escapism. I vaguely remember the time when i was really sick and i sat down (television was revoked from me for that period for some reason). It was then that i found myself reading Little Red Riding Hood. Yeap that was the first book that i read and got interested in reading because of it... it also was the thing that sparked my brain to do its thinkin in English instead of Tamil fer some reason... after that day every time i came in contact with Tamil, my brain puked it out again like some foreign object. (My grandma was pulling out her hair by tryin to teach me Tamil... err.. actually so where the rest of the teachers who tried to teach me).

I went to a catholic kindergarten and was taught English and Chinese (they didn't have Tamil teachers there apparently). I only remember vaguely on what happened there... short snippets of the playground and the nursery rhymes that we were forced to sing in unison. How we all rushed off once the last bell rang to be greeted by our parents who were there to pick us up. Actually the bell thing, stuck through out my life... even now at work.. i'm just waiting for it to be 6 and im off to wherever i'm going. I was not terribly social when i was there either. I dont remember having much friends or liking to introduce myself to many people. (I've always hated introducing myself to a large crowd... feels like im putting myself on display with my guts on the table).

Then came primary school. On the first day i felt totally lost. I had no idea what to expect. No idea what to say to the hundreds of people staring at me. It was a day i felt smaller than i already was. But sooner or later i did find some friends and my life style changed. When i went to school i knew which group to look for fun n laughs n games. But that still didn't mean i liked school though. I was absoulutely repulsed by homeworks! and so it was for 2 years of my life at Braddel Primary School. After that i had to be transffered to another school. My parents decided to move outta my grandmothers place to Bukit Batok. I never got a chance to tell my friends. It was seamless... at the end of the entire first 2 years, i was told that i was going to some school in Bukit Batok. It wasn't a great loss i must say. My friends at school and i never saw each other unless in school. Things happened too fast for my mind to even start comprehending and even my parents told me just a week before we were officially moved out of the news. I was always the last to know.

The next 2 years in Bukit Batok, was spent at Toh Tuck Primary. The teachers here were older and didn't hesitate to hit their students... especially the Tamil teachers ( this was particularly gonna affect me cus of my allergy to Tamil..) I've always found that compared to my English teachers.. Tamil teachers were demons. They only knew how to make me miserable for my apparent disability with Tamil. I was graciously introduced to coperal punishment in this school as well. It always had to do with homework... never with punctuality or behaviour at school. Always hated homework... especially Maths and TAMIL...... to be cont'd
-Talon faced death at 5:16 PM

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Sunday, March 05, 2006
Theres a land out there, where the sunsets perpetually, where the plains race to meet the sun. There is a land out there where everytime i visit, i don't wanna go. The wind blows cooly on my face, and my destiny is laid before me before my very eyes. I know what i am and my purpose, and accept Destiny with arms wide open. And in the failing light we become one and the balance that was missing in my life... is created. There is a land out there, where my fate's name is Destiny.
-Talon faced death at 1:49 PM

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Sometimes, you just gotta ask yourself.... what am i doing? And look at what led you to your current situation from a thrid persons perspective. Sometimes, you'll be pretty amazed that you could or could not do such a thing and yet it happened. At worst, you regret what you've done and at best you'll never regret it cus now you know.

When you regret, you think of the lameness, the stupidity, the utter lack of common sense that made you do what you did and how it could have been different. But if it were different, would the end be different or would it just be the same conclusion?
-Talon faced death at 1:28 PM

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Fer some reason February always seems to have the worst effect on me. Life particuarly sux more than usual on this month. Its at times like this i wish... urgh nvm.

Anyways. I finally got enough energy and time to update mah blog. Have you ever wondered why people... specially older people, when they are on buses and a seat frees up fer them, just before they go on and plant their butts on the seat, they have to beat the seat first? Its not like their softening the seat up or anything cus some of them just touch the seat before sitting down as if their hands have this magical power to make the seat theirs upon them touching the seat... like how animals mark their territory by pissing. Or maybe they do that to beat off any germs and diseases which maybe left by the previous owner.. but then again.. wont the germs just get on your hands?... The last person could have just farted for all you know... one of those silent ones. Or worse.. the last person coulda shit in their pants wen they did fart... i'll leave the rest up to your imagination on what happens after someone taps the seat with their hands...
-Talon faced death at 12:58 PM

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Tuesday, February 21, 2006
..... Only in my dreams
-Talon faced death at 12:26 AM

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Friday, January 20, 2006
I had the wierdest nightmare last night. Must have been the elements of last night somehow combined and come together in the wierdest of ways... and then... there was light.. morning again and back to work. Not fer long though cus theres just a few hours left fer the weekend to start again. I need ta sleep, i need ta relax and take my mind off stuff.... i need... a Rebel Yell
-Talon faced death at 9:07 AM

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Monday, January 16, 2006
I bored! bored bored bored! I hate it when that happens!!
-Talon faced death at 5:16 PM

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Thursday, January 05, 2006
Human beings are a strange strange life form... they are never content with their own life but they claim that they will be content after achieving a certain goal in life, they excercise to look good but they have machines to make their lives easier, they look fer life in the most distant planets n deepest seas but their own lives have much looking into to do these and many more are things i often think of whehn thinkin of the human race... what have we achieved after one trip around the Sun? More wars, more love, more confusion, more order... in the end wen we cancel them out we're back where we started at the beginning of Jan. The game is still played in the same way... just the people and trend have changed... yeap a whole new year of laughin n cryin... n theres nothin anyone can do to prevent whatevers gonna happen from happening... i hope your Year is full of highs.. but if it goes low.... just wait fer the next high
-Talon faced death at 4:30 PM

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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Goodbye 2005 hello 2006. As i've been saying to alot of people... 2005 has been a year of alot of changes fer me. people came... some stayed and some just left. the past few weekends have been awesome tho... drinkin n partyin like there was no tomorrow. Even when i wanted to stop on Sunday i was forced to drink more... hmm the 1st was a day of reflection fer me and i din wanna drink tho i was given lotsa free drinks. I was thinkin about stuff... as usual when i'm tired and then i was talkin to one of the bar tenders... i kinda flipped at that point... i dunno if it was the drinks or the constant paying of songs that reminded me of the past but hearing about his life just made me wonder why my life isn't just as simple. Why do i always have to end up in some weird situation which i can't deal with... why me?
-Talon faced death at 2:31 AM

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Sunday, December 04, 2005
Hertz Aus Stahl

Ein Feuer brennt
1000 Meilen weg,
Zeig mir den Weg zum Ziel.

Ich reit' Kometen,
Mein Weg ist lang und schwer,
Schweigen ist die schwerste Last.

Kaempf gegen die Welt,
Nimm alles, was es gibt,
Manchmal verlier auch ich.

Geboren um gegen den Wind zu gehen,
Geboren um zu verlieren,
Wohin ich geh', geh' ich allein.

Schlag' die Schlacht,
Leb wie Du willst.
Ich kenn' keine Not
Und keine Angst vor'm Tod.

Schlag' die Schlacht,
Du hast die Wahl,
Ich hab' ein Herz aus Stahl.

Geh den Weg nur vorwaerts,
Lasse nichts zurueck,
Es gibt nur eine Chance.

Die jetzt lachen und sich freu'n,
Werden es noch seh'n,
Sie werd'n wie Schnee vergeh'n.

Wir werden geh'n als ein starkes Heer,
Sie beugen das Haupt, Ihr Mut geht dahin.

Dann lachen wir, vorbei die Qual
und seht das Herz aus Stahl,
zu hart fuer euch - zu hart fuer euch.

Schlag' die Schlacht,
Leb wie Du willst.
Ich kenn' keine Not
Und keine Angst vor'm Tod.
Schlag' die Schlacht,
Du hast die Wahl,
Ich hab' ein Herz aus Stahl.
Ich hab' ein Herz aus Stahl.

Schlag' die Schlacht,
Du hast die Wahl,
Ich hab' ein Herz aus Stahl.
Schlag' die Schlacht,
Leb wie Du willst.
Ich kenn' keine Not
Und keine Angst vor'm Tod.

Schlag' die Schlacht,
Du hast die Wahl,
Ich hab' ein Herz aus Stahl
-Talon faced death at 1:40 AM

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Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Tired of thinkin too much. I'm sooo damn sleepy i don't know how i'm stayin awake. I don't know what i want or need right now except sleep. Hate it when people don't know the whole picture and start assuming stuff about me. I hate being branded. No 2 ppl can ever come to a final conclusion about whats in my heart no matter how they speculate...

Sometimes a song can hold much meaning to a person's life:

Hold the Dream
Firehouse

When you're lost and lonely and
You feel you can't go on
In the blink of an eye
You could throw it all away

You can turn your world around
Show them all what you can do
Just believe, and trust your heart
To see you through

A dream so real
You can feel it in the palm of your hand
So hang onto tomorrow
And never look back again

Hold the dream
Don't ever let it go
Hold the dream

Don't ever let it get you down
When they turn their back on you
Just do what feels right for you

You can find what you're looking for
Don't get lost along the way
Always be strong, your heart can't be wrong
Don't give up and your dreams will come true

A dream so real
You can feel it in the palm of your hand
So hang onto tomorrow
And never look back again

Hold the dream
Don't ever let it go
Hold the dream
Hang onto tomorrow
Hold the dream
Don't ever let it go
Hold the dream
Hold the dream, ahhha
Hold the dream
Don't ever let it go
Hold the dream
Hang onto tomorrow
Hold the dream
Don't ever let it go
Hold the dream
Hang onto tomorrow
Hold the dream
Don't ever let it go
Hold the dream
-Talon faced death at 1:25 PM

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Monday, November 14, 2005
Damn i hate it when i dunno what i'm doing. Suddenly... it always happens suddenly and i know i'm gonna hate myself for it later but i still carry on. I dunno what i'm doing. As a friend once said just yesterday.. life is about takin chances... hmm much to think about and so little time to think. I wanna jus see how far this goes and gonna try my best not to expect anything from this at all. argggghhhh
-Talon faced death at 1:13 PM

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Friday, November 04, 2005
What a week! It started from last Friday. Went over to Vintage to chk out that the decor fer halloween was holding up since we put it up on Monday. Think i drak abit too much than i intended and got pretty much hiiiii.

After that it was Sat.. our very own Halloween party was brought forwar to be on that day and it was awesome! hahaha the shocking of ppl started from my own house.. 1st my sis and cousin then my mum then some ppl on the streets near my place and then all the way to Orchard. You can imagine how many people were shocked to see me dressed in a cloak with the hood low on my face and my face painted. At Vintage itself we partied till late and finally went to Mac to have supper.. muahahahahaha

Sunday was another party.. named by my Vocalist... a Puke party. We were hi on drinks and listening to a Nightwish cover band and it was all good.

Monday was Halloween day and i met up with some friends to have shisha... more like a shisha buffet... or a shisha fest! I left ard 3am the next morning and was damned tired after cleaning up my room when i got back.

Tuesday i went visiting Jay's place fer Deepavali and it was fun... haven't seen him in a looooong time... the food was great n realllyyy filling. After that we went to this intersting cafe where they rented board games. We finally got introduced to this game by the guy who works there after a long time of choosing and undecidedness. And it was reallly fun hahahaha i was a madman who killed everyone with zombies... muahahahahah!!!!

On Wednesday we went to the shisha place had one shisha then it was off to a Jazz cafe fer a drink and then to another cafe to have a jug of beer. We didnt do much that day but we had a great time.

Thursday was a pretty good day... i watched Doom.. the movie!!! I'm not n avid Doom player so i can't say much about it but i think the movie was pretty good. Then we met the rest n went to play that game again... twice this time. yeap its a really good game. We went to play pool after that and finally went fer dinner and a beer at the Jazz cafe again.

All in all my weeksofar has been extremely eventfull. Well can't wait fer the end of today to continue it till boring ol Monday comes.... *sigh* But fer now i shant think about that n have one of the best times ever
-Talon faced death at 10:56 AM

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